Pushcart Nominated: After the Last Supper and Other Poems

by Nicholas Trandahl

Pushcart Nominated Poem:

AFTER THE LAST SUPPER

In Jerusalem,

Christ steps outside

to get some air after supper,

breadcrumbs in his beard,

a little buzzed

from good dark wine,

old callouses

adorning his unscarred palms,

grains of sand

still clinging to his hair

from his journey across the desert.

Inside,

his oldest friends are stunned

by what he’s told them,

especially Judas.

Christ looks westward,

where the faint orange glow

of Apollo’s campfire

smolders like prophecy

on the dusk-lit horizon,

smolders

somewhere beyond Cyprus

and Alexandria,

somewhere

beyond the Pillars of Hercules,

somewhere

beyond the dark waters

of the world.

Christ lets out a sigh

into the warmth

of the setting spring night,

sweat beading his worried brow.

He’s out of time.

The world

is just so beautiful,

he thinks.

There’s just so much

I’ll never get to see.

Darkness

falls fully over Jerusalem,

over ominous Golgotha,

as Christ walks with a few friends

toward the garden of Gethsemane.

Maybe there’s still time?

he wonders.

Maybe I can still

get out of this?

Maybe

it’s not too late?

ROSARY

with gratitude to Kimberly Phinney

Clicking

along

the wooden beads

of my rosary,

following

this strand

of prayers

like a creek,

luminous

with autumn light,

dense

with rainbow trout

and thirsty muzzles

of whitetail,

elk,

and bighorn sheep,

following

prayers

where they lead

like a trail

climbing

arduous

seven-hundred feet

to the limestone rim

of the canyon,

blue sky

yawning

above,

hawk

carving

sacred symbolism

in crisp clear air,

me

perched here

at the edge

like a holy fool

or wild thing,

unafraid,

whispering

words

repetitive,

zen-like

in the stained glass state

of acceptance,

anger

and sin

flaking

from weary shoulders,

a sweaty brow,

breathing,

breathing,

accepting,

releasing

like leaves

from trees

crowded silent

in icy shadows

of the canyon floor,

golden yellow,

orange,

bright red

given way

to late autumn notes

of umber,

burgundy,

grey,

letting go

of their leaves

to rot

among

stones,

bones,

and shattered deadfall,

chipmunks

and red squirrels

scampering,

following

those prayers

all the way

to the understanding

that all of this

is the true prayer,

never-ending,

like love,

like how matter

grows,

thrives,

decays,

changes form

and continues on,

transforms

endlessly

into new life,

new forms,

each one

so sacred,

so beautiful,

so holy

that it’s almost

overwhelming,

and I finish here

though I don’t want to

finish

clicking

through these prayers

like mantras

between thumb

and finger

as the late patina

of this day

forces me

out of this graceful loop,

this strand

of cycles,

like rebirth,

like beginning

again

and again

despite the fear

and sorrow,

the unbelievable heartache,

the doubt

that I’m enough

or ever will be

enough,

despite everything,

standing

ceaselessly

to walk out

into vast primal spaces

where the fire

still burns

within me,

where I know

I’m also a part

of the prayer,

porous,

all sorts of miracles

filtered

through my substance,

flowing down,

connecting

endlessly

to everything else,

swept along

to places

I was never

prepared to go

but did anyway,

where I learn

how to be

a better man,

where I learn

how to love

more deeply,

how to be brave

and grateful,

clicking

along

the wooden beads

of my rosary.

UTAH SKETCHES

I

Good green valleys.

Glistening lakes,

blue as the waters

at the foot of Orion.

Reddened cliffs.

Lofty mountain summits—

winter-crowned titans

of the Wasatch.

Place of purification.

Each curve

of the land

unfolds

a new secret.

II

Coming down

out of the mountains

into Provo—

snowmelt

in the spring.

III

Passing by

the Great Salt Lake

on our way north, toward Idaho.

Heavy rain

washes away

our holy desert residuals—

angels,

gods of wind

and warm stone,


Navajo rhythms,

colors

we’ve carried north

from the Kaibab Plateau

in Arizona.

IV

Out here

in the Grass Valley,

mountains rise

on either side.

Spring breeze.

Morning choir

of songbirds.

Harmony.

Some long-broken part of me

has so suddenly been made

whole again.

There it is.

I felt it

just now.

NICHOLAS TRANDAHL

Nicholas Trandahl is an award-winning poet, journalist, outdoorsman, and veteran residing in northern Wyoming, where he currently also serves as mayor of a small town. He has had five poetry collections published and has also been featured in numerous literary journals and anthologies. Trandahl has been awarded the Wyoming Writers Milestone Award and has received several nominations for the Pushcart Prize. Additionally, he works as poetry editor for The Dewdrop literary journal and as a regular contributor for The Way Back to Ourselves literary journal, while also serving as chairman of the annual Eugene V. Shea National Poetry Contest.


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